I really hate the fact that I wake up every morning with such a positive attitude. I do my best to make my appearance as attractive as possible. The thing is every day is the same, No one calls me and invites me over No one ever comes out to my place . I realize I moved to the edge of town and it's a drive but I always thought that is what friends do. My depression is getting worse and I am starting to realize that loneliness is gonna be a factor in the rest of my life. I haven't been asked out on a date forever and I am just getting sick of pretending that my life is all right Four months ago before I moved to the middle of nowhere it seemed I was liked and I was actually part of a group. Now I am lost in a sea of loneliness and depression.I knew moving here was the best for me I had to make some changes in my lifestyle but I am starting to lose it a little..For whats the fun of living if your by yourself most of the time when your use to having some friends around. I deal with ignorance and stupid people all the time I could handle it when I friends around they helped me let roll right off me but lately with only myself to address my problems it's not good. I can be very blonde and make bad choices. So like always I will be alone again for another beautiful day wondering what my friends are doing and planning to go bed by nine due to boredom. short length wedding garments with lace